Sunday, February 22, 2009

Thank You

I just wanted to say thank you to all of you who commented on my last post. You all had such wonderful, inspirational words that I think I cried when reading almost all of them. It's nice to feel like I have all of your support during this time in my life. And it gave me a boost each day that I read another post agreeing with me that I can do this. So again thank you for all your love and support.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

I Can Do This

So Greg just left yesterday to go to Utah for 2 weeks. He will back for about 4 days and is then off to Georgia for 6 weeks. I have to admit that a few days ago I was mad at him, even though I know it's not his fault. I mean it's not like he can just tell the army. "No" or so say, "My wife just had a baby this really isn't the best time for me to leave." I don't think the army really cares. So like I said I know it's not his fault, this just happened to be the time he had to leave. Still I was feeling sorry for myself the other day and had a little anxiety about having to take care of both kids on my own. I have had some friends tell me they know how I feel because their husbands work long hours, but when they say things like that I just want to slap them in the face! I want to say at least your husband is home every night, can help out in the morning or once he gets home and you get to spend the whole weekend with him. I on the other hand will be going to bed alone and wake up alone for 6 weeks. I will take care of my kids with no husband for 6 weeks. It's not just the lack of help but the missing of my companion. Greg is my best friend and I get very lonely not having him around.

So like I said Greg left yesterday around 4 and i spent my first night with just me and the kids. To my surprise it ran really smoothly and after Eva was in bed at 8:00 and Layla and I were in our beds by 10:00, I had this voice come into my head that said, "you can do this" I had such a feeling of comfort and I was so relaxed. It was wonderful. I know that everyday will not run perfectly, but I really feel like I can handle all of this. I just have to stay positive. And lean on my family and friends. I know I have help if I need it. I just have to swallow my pride and ask for it. Plus Heavenly Father blessed me with a very sweet, easy going baby. I think he new I needed her to be sent to me now so that I can manage both kids. And I am thankful for that. So today I am very positive. I know that I can handle this. I love my kids and my husband and once April rolls around this will all be over. Well until next year when he gets sent away to Afghanistan or somewhere else. But that will be a whole other post, I'm not ready for that, yet.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

2 weeks Later

Well we have had Layla for a little over 2 weeks now and things are going great. So far she is such a good baby.(knock on wood) She never had her days and nights mixed up so from day one she has slept great at night and only wakes to eat. She is very content during the day which makes it really easy for me to handle her and Eva at the same time. My Mom and Dad were able to come out which was so nice. My Mom was such great help I loved having her with me while I recovered. It was also really nice that my Dad was able to come for a short time too. Eva really liked seeing him and was even asking for her Poppy today.

Like I said Layla is a great baby and makes it easy to juggle time with both kids. Plus Eva loves her and doesn't seem to mind having to share Mommy with her new sister.

Greg is also enjoying his new little daughter and loves to snuggle with her while he watches T.V.

Eva really likes to help with Layla and says "cute baby" when she first sees her in the morning.
She also likes to shake her hand and say "nice to meet you" it's really cute. I'm very thankful that Eva is so sweet to Layla. It just makes it that much easier.

I am just really enjoying this sweet little girl. I love her so much.

I just can't get enough of her.