I Can Do This

So Greg just left yesterday to go to Utah for 2 weeks. He will back for about 4 days and is then off to Georgia for 6 weeks. I have to admit that a few days ago I was mad at him, even though I know it's not his fault. I mean it's not like he can just tell the army. "No" or so say, "My wife just had a baby this really isn't the best time for me to leave." I don't think the army really cares. So like I said I know it's not his fault, this just happened to be the time he had to leave. Still I was feeling sorry for myself the other day and had a little anxiety about having to take care of both kids on my own. I have had some friends tell me they know how I feel because their husbands work long hours, but when they say things like that I just want to slap them in the face! I want to say at least your husband is home every night, can help out in the morning or once he gets home and you get to spend the whole weekend with him. I on the other hand will be going to bed alone and wake up alone for 6 weeks. I will take care of my kids with no husband for 6 weeks. It's not just the lack of help but the missing of my companion. Greg is my best friend and I get very lonely not having him around.

So like I said Greg left yesterday around 4 and i spent my first night with just me and the kids. To my surprise it ran really smoothly and after Eva was in bed at 8:00 and Layla and I were in our beds by 10:00, I had this voice come into my head that said, "you can do this" I had such a feeling of comfort and I was so relaxed. It was wonderful. I know that everyday will not run perfectly, but I really feel like I can handle all of this. I just have to stay positive. And lean on my family and friends. I know I have help if I need it. I just have to swallow my pride and ask for it. Plus Heavenly Father blessed me with a very sweet, easy going baby. I think he new I needed her to be sent to me now so that I can manage both kids. And I am thankful for that. So today I am very positive. I know that I can handle this. I love my kids and my husband and once April rolls around this will all be over. Well until next year when he gets sent away to Afghanistan or somewhere else. But that will be a whole other post, I'm not ready for that, yet.

2 weeks Later

Well we have had Layla for a little over 2 weeks now and things are going great. So far she is such a good baby.(knock on wood) She never had her days and nights mixed up so from day one she has slept great at night and only wakes to eat. She is very content during the day which makes it really easy for me to handle her and Eva at the same time. My Mom and Dad were able to come out which was so nice. My Mom was such great help I loved having her with me while I recovered. It was also really nice that my Dad was able to come for a short time too. Eva really liked seeing him and was even asking for her Poppy today.

Like I said Layla is a great baby and makes it easy to juggle time with both kids. Plus Eva loves her and doesn't seem to mind having to share Mommy with her new sister.

Greg is also enjoying his new little daughter and loves to snuggle with her while he watches T.V.

Eva really likes to help with Layla and says "cute baby" when she first sees her in the morning.
She also likes to shake her hand and say "nice to meet you" it's really cute. I'm very thankful that Eva is so sweet to Layla. It just makes it that much easier.

I am just really enjoying this sweet little girl. I love her so much.



I just can't get enough of her.

And Then There Were Four

After 9 long months of consuming over 300 Tums, gaining 25 pounds, going on countless trips to Taco Bell, and 1 very big needle, Layla Grace made her appearance into the world. She was born by C-section on 1-20-09 at 12:32pm. Weighing 6lbs 13oz and 19 1/4 inches. Here is a picture of her right after she was pulled out of my stomach. You can see Greg in the background taking a peek over the curtain.

I have to admit that it was a little nerve racking just laying there on the table waiting to hear that first cry. But once I heard she was out and I saw her for the first time I think I was crying harder than she was.

After a short stay in recovery I was able to go to my room and spend time with my sweet little girl. Don't you just love the little pink hat?


Eva came up later that day and got to meet her new little sister. I was a little worried at how she would react to seeing me with a baby and hooked up to so many things. She really hates to see anyone hurt and freaks out if I have the smallest cut or bruise. But surprisingly she did great. She loved seeing Layla, and didn't seem to mind the IV in my arm at all. Every now and again she would just rub my shoulder and say, "it's OK Momma, It's OK." It was really sweet.


I'm really glad to be home now but I still have a lot of recovering to do. I will post more pictures of Layla soon but I just wanted to get a few on now for everyone to see. So here are my two best girls. My little Angels. Eva and Layla

A little of This and A little of That.

I don't really have anything new or exciting to post but there are a few different things that are going on in our little family right now. As you can tell I'm about ready to pop. At 37 weeks I think my stomach is about as big as it can get. I'm having this baby in less than 2 weeks now and the count down is on. I'm in constant pain in my ribs and pelvis, I have horrible heart burn and I'm extremely emotional. I think it's time for this baby to come out.

Greg is now working for the office here in Pocatello so he is home so much more now. He still has to travel to Utah once in a while but not like before which is so wonderful. I can not tell you how much I love having him home every night. Plus now that I am extremely pregnant he helps out so much with Eva. We both put her to bed together but Greg gives Eva her bath so I don't have to bend over the tub. And he entertains her so much when he comes home from work. They have so much fun playing together. She has gotten really attached to him. When they watch T.V. together Greg will give her what we call a baby massage. She loves it and sits so still while he rubs her back. It's really cute.

The last little bit of info is that we are potty training Eva. She is not all the way there yet but she is doing well. She still has a hard time holding it for long but she is always willing to go and really likes to wear her big girl underwear. Plus it has been so nice to not change poopy diapers anymore. I think it will still take a while before she is 100% but again I'm really proud of her and I'm loving not having to change diapers. So that's whats been going on here. Stay tuned for my next post which will probably include pictures of little Layla Grace.